Aidee Douglas

I was the type of person that would say something like “God has plan” when bad things happened, you know because no matter what happens there is always a solution.  But there is not a solution for death.  Now, I am here and it’s 4:00 in the morning and all I want to say is F*#! THAT PLAN and I want my friend  back. I am mad, and sad.

It hurts so much and I can’t stop crying.

I don’t care if my friend is now an angel. I don’t want an angel I want  my friend back.

I want you here now, with me. I want to be able to talk to you, to call you. I want to see your pictures on Instagram and your posts on Facebook. I don’t want to have this emptiness in my heart. This is not fair. I am not mad at anything. I am not mad at God either. Probably I am mad at myself for not doing more, for not calling you more, for not visiting you more, for not writing you more.

Never leave mad. Forgive. Don’t go to bed mad. Never ever forget to say I love you. Don’t forget to call. Choose peace. Put them first. Hug more. Say I am sorry. And go after your dreams. Life is short and seriously you only have the now. So enjoy the moment and smile.

I love you Priscila.

A couple weeks ago Coe and I had a mini celebration for his birthday and my friend Julie brought one of the best vegan dishes I had in a while.  I mentioned it before on my last post.

Julie’s Epic Dip

3 cans of Green Giant Mexi-Corn (drained)
1 can of black beans (drained)
1 cup of shredded cheddar cheese (Julie used Daiya, but I didn’t use anything because I didn’t have any, and the dip was pretty good with out it)
1 bunch of green onions (chopped)
Jalapenos to taste (diced)

Mix all the above ingredients together and set aside (Use a large bowl)

In a separate bowl mix together

1 cup of vegenaise
2 cups of Vegan sour cream
pinch of salt
1/2 cup of cilantro
1 tsp of cumin
1 tsp lime/or lemon juice
1 tsp of cayenne pepper

Add the wet ingredients to the corn and bean mixture and refrigerate for
about 4 hours or even overnight. Serve with Fritos or tortilla chips.

***If you are new buying Vegan sour cream and mayonnaise check out Follow Your Heart.

I am back from from my vacay, I am a bit tired from it, but over all feeling very inspired and ready to rock the worlds. I went to Mexico for 9 unexpected days and then came back home for a couple of days, literally I was back home for two and half days and then left again to meet for the first time the California state.

There is so much energy and inspiration that I feel. I am now just praying and asking God for guidence to make the right decisions on my life.

1. Friends. This one is a given. I have always surround myself with people that have great energy. Usually, it is hard for a girl that has moved a lot, like me, to find good peeps, but I’ve been extremely lucky with this because everywhere I go there has always been amazing people. People that inspired me and respect my ideas and who I am, and encourage my dreams with love and honesty. 

{yes, we order those}

2. Birthdays. Well my husband’s birthday is today. And I usually don’t like my birthday. But I am starting to actually embrace it and just love it. He received so much love from everybody; family and friends. It has been just so great to see so much love around him.

{6:00 am this morning. Happy Birthday Babe}

{last month celebrating their birthday. Grandpa & brother-in-law}

3.  And unexpected dip. So we had a mini celebration for Coe’s birthday and one of my girlfriends made this amazing vegan dip. So tasty, and the best part of course it was that it was Vegan. I will have the recipe soon.

My husband’s birthday is Tuesday, but we started our celebrations Friday afternoon. Anyway, one of our new family traditions is to ask 20 questions on our birthday. I see it as a good way to see how much we change thru the years.  And I am sure some of the answers he will repeat in the next years, like his favorite color, like now he likes the blue color and he will probably always will like blue. But what if in 20 years he decides that he is more a pink kind of guy. It will be fun to discover.

People will usually ask this questions to their kids, and once I have them I am planing on doing that too. But for now is just me and the man. So here are the questions and his answers.

1. What is your favorite color? Blue

2. What is your favorite toy? Books

3. What is your favorite fruit? Raspberry

4. What is your favorite tv show? Castle and Buffy

5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? Tempeh tacos from Taco Lu

6. What is your favorite outfit? Jeans and converse

7. What is your favorite game? Football

8. What is your favorite snack? Raisin bran

9. What is your favorite animal? Dog

10. What is your favorite song? Giant Steps by John Coltrane

11. What is your favorite book? Demian by Hermann Hesse

12. Who is your best friend? Aidee

13. What is your favorite cereal? Raisin Bran

14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Walk and read

15. What is your favorite drink? iced coffee

16. What is your favorite holiday? Halloween

17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? books

18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? Smoothies

19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? Something with my wife (awww)

20. What do you want to be when you grow up? a novelist

21. One word, how did you describe last year between last birthday and this one? Change

22. What are your plans for the coming year? Fiction, stories.

23.  Describe perfect birthday day? Dinner with my wife.

24. Favorite alcoholic drink? Dos XX

25. What does your birthday mean to you? It means growth