Aidee Douglas

My 20’s had been harder than my teens. I guess the fact that I look back to any situation and it always looks awesome has to do with this statement.  Anyway, I frankly think it has been hard. This is how my 20’s have been.

Here are a few Aidee-isms: I began with the break up of my 3 year relationship. Then, back to dating. Stop partying and start studying. Keep parting and studying. Stop spending your money in designer clothes and shoes. Going to Target instead. Saving money and open a Roth and a 401k. Feel like you are old. Been nice to other people. Stop making fun of people, because you are not in high school anymore. Think that you know everything. Working 40 hrs a week and going to school full time; going crazy from all the pressure. Paying all your stuff without anybody’s help. Buying my first new car. Making mistakes and beat the hell out of me because of that. Graduating. Finding a “good” job. Paying all your stuff on time. Traveling all over the world. Making payments to you school loan; don’t want to do that anymore because you know that you will finish paying them in 20 years. Asking yourself why you went to a private school instead of a public one over and over again, hit your head on the wall. Follow all the rules, and then breaking some of them, becoming vegetarian, dating, hating dating, partying with out drinking, grandfather dies, sad moments and thinking a lot about life and future.

Knowing that you are extremely bright and funny. Trying to control the obsessive thoughts. Decide to find the prince charming. Laughing. Getting married. Moving far away from my parents and friends. Getting 10 pounds because you can’t eat like a starving child from Somalia anymore. Start working out. Take vitamins. Think you know everything for sure and changing your mind 24hrs later. Having tsunami sized panic attacks because you don’t know what is going to happen with your life. Feeling very sad. Feeling very happy. Reading a lot. Doing tons of yoga. Loving my body, ignoring the parts you don’t like. Become a yoga teacher. Again, obsessing about everything. Decide to go to grad school; undecide the grad school idea because you really don’t care for anything and it will be a waist of money again. Having random jobs. Don’t know what you want to be. Being confused. Praying. Doubt myself again and again. Compere your self to others. Stop fighting with my mother. Love being married and in your 20’s. Being scared about having kids. Missing my parents. Crying, don’t understand why you cry for everything still, that supposed to stop in your teens.

Evaluate your life and realize that you had a pretty amazing life full of incredible things. Promise to yourself that you are going to appreciate everything everyday. Loving your life. Loving yourself. Really loving yourself, even when you do the stupidest things ever and when you make the same mistake over and over again. Laughing at yourself. Telling yourself to stop trying to get ahead. Life is not a competition. Enjoy the moment.

Realize that there’s nothing better than your husband’s homemade popcorn and watching a movie on your couch with your doggies laying at your feet.

I’m completely idealistic about the rest of my 20’s.  I know great things are about to come because it always has been that way for me because I’m freaking awesome and I have the best luck ever. I’d like to pause for a quick second here and give a huge shout out to my parents for having me.  The end.

Tags: Growth, Life, Me, Memories, My Twenties