Aidee Douglas

This life that I have gets in the way of my writing.

I have a job, from 9 to 6. Like a normal American person. It feels right for this right moment. And I am trying to do it all. Just like you. But in in the process my brain freaks out and creates unnecessary thoughts.

The other day, I was in my hip mood, dancing and all and then I just start thinking “you are too comfortable, you should be doing the things that scare you”. And for a moment I almost embrace that thought. But I know better.

I do think about doing “what scares me.” You know because you hear that all the time, every where. But come on! There are a lot of things that scare me and I am not doing. Like I am really scared of  taking a bath really late a night with out my man in the house. Because I think somebody is going to come in and kill me. I never will never do it!  I will never take a shower later at night with out somebody in my house. I guess I am a wimp.

Sometimes I think I should  just write down all the things that scared me and do them all, just for fun. To make my life more adventurous.

But, not today.

And I know the whole slogan “do what scares you” should be positive and encouraging but is not, at least not for me.

I lived like that for a long time, I did too many things on the name of that slogan. And a lot of them where very stupid mistakes. So NO don’t do what scares you. Do follow your dreams, be kind and work hard!