Best Buy, Home Depot & Dr. Phil

I have to go to Best Buy to buy this iPhone player and I have procrastination written all over my face. I can’t get myself to do it. I just don’t like stores like Best Buy and Home Depot.

Home Depot is wild. I used to go there with my parents, before I got married. I don’t know why they would take me there with them. I guess it was the combination of me being lonely and my parents frightened feeling of me drinking their entire home bar while they were gone. I guess that was our quality time. I remember wandering around asking all kinds of questions to whoever was around me. I also remember with a lot of sympathy the m&m’s vending machine in the back of the store by the restrooms. Those where good m&m’s. Anyway, best buy doesn’t have vending machines, so getting m&m’s from them is not an option. Instead, I would have to buy the big bag and the big bags usually have way more than what I need. It’s a waste.

Oh dear procrastination, I hate you!!! Even writing this post is part of my procrastination. Right now, I’m procrastinating doing Zumba and going to Best Buy. And I decided to write because “I need to”. NOT!!!!! Its just my procrastinating ways. I can make up all kinds of “need to’s” in order for me to NOT do what I really NEED to do.

Sometimes I feel like I have two people inside of my head. The kid and the adult. The kid doesn’t want to do anything and is definitely always playing around, and the adult is rigid, very strict, expects the very best. I usually have to work things out with these two personas inside of my head and find a middle. Like if I have to pay bills and do boring money stuff the kid in me wants to procrastinate, but the adult gets really mad if I don’t do those things. So I end up negotiating with both of me. I tell the kid that I need to do it but while doing it I’m going to have a Venti Chai at Starbucks. You know I have to make things FUN!

You may say, JUST DO IT! Nope, that doesn’t work for me. Things that I do have to make me just a tiny little bit happy at least. If they don’t, I just don’t do them.

To keep putting off my MUST DO’s, let me tell you about what’s on TV. The TV is on and is on MUTE for no reason. Dr. Phil is on the TV and I have problems with him. I really don’t care for the guy, because I don’t like LIARS, and I think he is a liar. I’m looking at him and I’m like what is his deal? He wrote a diet book, OMG! Yes people he did! The dude is clearly OVERWEIGHT! He clearly can’t loose weight, but he thinks he can give advice about the subject. It’s like me trying to write about cars and mechanic stuff when we know that it’s obvious I don’t have a clue about those subjects. I can’t give advice on the things I don’t know. People like Dr. Phil take advantage of the impact and power they have on the public and for that I despise him. Next time I watch him he is probably going to have the Klu Klux Klan, Black Panthers and people throwing things at each other. Is he an actual Psychologist? I may have to dig into that.

I’m done procrastinating and ready for some Zumba. Let’s play it loud and get going. Life is short and things need to get done. And remember procrastination doesn’t mean you don’t want to do something. It actually means you work better under pressure.

Decisions Decisions Decisions and Getting OFF Topic

There is not a rule about me making decisions. Like some times I’m really sharp and fast about it (that makes me feel very proud and mature about myself) but sometimes I just truly do not know what to do and I can spend hours and days struggling about the decision. Literal agony! It’s like I’m waiting for this big revelation to just come and give the spectacular solution. The decisions can be big or little ones, it doesn’t matter.

This time it’s about my professional life. Right now, I have two job offers. One is for this cool trendy job. You know, working with one of my favorite things: SHOES!!!  I get to work with awesome people and have a really cool time while I work. The other job is not as cool. I would be doing sheets and more sheets of Excel full of numbers and then I will have to make phone calls to those whose numbers are in red.

The difference is the MONEY!! First job not much ching-ching; the second job pays almost twice. I know with this fact the answer should be easy, but what about quality of life and happiness and doing what you love and all that crap. What matters most? Money or happiness? Money makes you happy, right?

The fear of making the wrong decision can be completely debilitating. We all deal with this in different levels. We don’t want to make a mistake. I don’t want to work in a company doing tasks that make me cheerless and have head pains to get paid what I think I deserve. I wish I could commingle the jobs to have THE perfecto job.

I’m annoyed by this constant argument inside of my head. So let’s let my YES/NO iPhone App decide for me. I do that all the time. Seriously, I don’t know where I would be with out this App. Matter of fact, I don’t know what I would do with out my iPhone, and I know everybody says that but my heart is speaking when I say my phone is my life. My personal importance list goes like this: husband, phone, Olivia (our dog), the rest of the family. The phone is in second place people!!!! Anyway, I’m getting off topic here.

No matter what decision I make I’m going to be happy with it, because I never regret anything and because I truly believe my decisions are always the best.

Life needs to be GOOD. Find your OWN and precious definition of GOOD.  For me good means to come home after work in a happy mood to be able to enjoy the little incredible every day things around me. Like seeing my little doggie doing some kind of shimmy-shake in the lower torso with an exaggeration of tail move or laughing unstoppably from the silliness of my blue eyed man.

The things I don’t like to talk about.

There are different things I don’t like to talk with anybody other than my husband, not even with my closest friends or family members. I would love to talk to anybody about why I have chosen the way I eat, and my political and religious views per say. It sounds like a cool thing to do, but in reality its hard to do. At least for me it is.

It would be so interesting to hear somebody else share with me their views of the current hot controversial phenomenon. I really think it would be pretty amazing to listen to one of my lovable close friends share this kind of stuff with me. If they differ from my beliefs, they are probably going to be wrong because I’m always right. But still it would be fun to discus and share and maybe after all that sharing while drinking tequila something magical happens. Maybe we come out with a innovative opinion. If we really open our hearts and our brain, amazing things can happen, right? For example, maybe the person that doesn’t accept gayness comes to senses and sees it as cool and acceptable. Drastic right? Well it can happen, a lot of my ideas have been changed just by reading a book.

I wish I was brave enough to talk about everything with everybody. I used to be brave, but that got lost with the “you are a lady you need to act like one”; all that politeness stuff.

Just because we are afraid of conflict and because we know we think differently we don’t touch those subjects. That’s pathetic. I had very uncomfortable situations with family members and with one of my closest friends in the past because we couldn’t handle somebody else thinking differently, (people around me should just give up and know that I’m always right). I don’t like the feeling that comes after having a conversation like that. Weird awkwardness! I guess I need to just shut my mouth or if I talk about the unspeakable, I should do it with people that think like me, so we just agree. How boring right? Yea those people just re-affirm that I’m right to think the way I think and that I don’t need to change. OMG! That is totally lame and one of the things I hate most about anybody.

I’m changing. I should now go to anybody that I know (and the ones I don’t know too – why not right? let’s make it more awkward) and start telling my position and my mental analysis of crucial situations. I have a better idea. Yep! You got it, I’m just going to write it now so I don’t have to repeat myself over and over again.

Political views

I was born in 1984 and I’m from Mexico, I don’t really know the politics of this country in deep, but I love this country just the same. I really do. I have consciously and with full awareness lived in the era of Clinton, Bush, and now Obama. Because where I’m from I don’t think cheating concerns me very much. Clinton gets a smile from me. On the other hand talking like a moron I do judge, so Bush gets a sad face. Again because were I’m from I do expect very little from politicians because they all lie to you. I never believe them.

Positively sad I always expect the worst.

My travels around the globe have giving me a way to see things and to see the ways other countries see this nation. So with Obama, I’m just glad he shows the world that Bush-Cheney is not who we are as nation. America is not what it has come to appear to be.

This country is among the most culturally, racially and religiously diverse on the planet. And that is why I give Obama a mini-smiley face. I didn’t give him a full one because he is not doing some stuff I would like him to. So for who will I be voting next? Who ever lies the best!

Vegetarian/Vegan

I will probably write a whole post about this subject in the future. I’m not wishy-washy when it comes down to this. My opinion msy be very strong and insulting but killing animals it’s wrong it gives me a sad face. Eating them is nasty and it gives me a sad face too. Using any animal for entertainment is wrong and it makes me cry a lot. And I would consciously never pay for anything that has caused any pain/sadness to any being, including those shoes that I adore so much and smell and feel so good.

I do have leather shoes from when I was a complete spoiled-selfish-female. I actually give away some LV handbags because I was a radical and I had to break the sick relation I had with them. Sleeping with your handbags it’s not normal! Anyway, now I do canvas.

I would love to go and protest out side of butcher shop, leather retail stores, etc., but that truly does not give me a smile so I don’t do it. But I’m glad somebody is doing it. I do make letters to different industrial organizations that are NOT doing sexy heroic things for this world.

Religion

I was born Catholic. A pretty conservative church. Do I agree with what they stand for? Mmmmm NOPE! Half of all the things they stand for make me laugh and some of the facts from the past horrify me. I believe that it’s important to find a church that fits the best with your ethics. Whatever feels right in your heart. And if you don’t believe in churches or God or anything, I think that is cool too! I totally understand you. I do kind of like to have a God. it makes me smile.

Think outside the box. Just be aware, informed and ask a lot of questions.

peace out!